someone please pray for me. this is going to be the hardest day of my life thus far.

my friends are back from london/ireland, and my life has improved exponentially.

fuck finals, I don't care, it's practically summer anyway.

fucking hell, i have the flu. fever, dizziness, cough, congestion, the works. goddamn it, i don't think i've ever been this miserably sick. i couldn't even get out of bed till 2, because every time i tried i got dizzy and FELL.


greeeaaaat. shoot me.

now off to buy some nyquil and something i can eat.

AAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHH FUCK THIS SHIT BITCH ASS HO I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL THIS GIRL


I HATE UNRELIABLE PEOPLE WHO SAY THEY'LL LIVE WITH YOU AND THEN BACK OUT LAST MINUTE LEAVING YOU AND YOUR ROOMMATE TO STRUGGLE TO FIND A FUCKING AFFORDABLE PLACE.

GODDAMN IT.

I think I'm in love.

when faced with the options of either a) coming up with $7,000 extra to pay for Sydney
or
b) staying in boston and graduating a semester early, saving myself approximately $17000 in loans

I've gotta choose staying.

fuck, i guess i was just deluding myself thinking i could go anywhere.

no matter what choice i made, i know i wouldn't be completely happy, but at least way i'll hopefully be a little less fucked when i graduate.


uugghhh, i dont want to let this get to me.

Dear BU,

Can you please tell me if I've been accepted to Sydney yet? Because if not, I have to register for classes THIS SATURDAY and at the mo I'm banking everything on Australia, and kind of need to know if that's not happening.

Please do not royally fuck me over for no apparent reason, since I got all my shit in on time and have been patiently waiting and all that.

Thanks,

Amanda

Dear Michael Phelps,

Please, PLEASE, never make this face again:






I'm not a gushing fan like other girls, and will only grudgingly admit that you're attractive in that goofy sort of way, but please. Gold medals are a big deal, yes, but there is no need to terrify the populace.

SCARIEST PICTURE EVER.

umm has anyone else heard of/seen "Britain's Missing Top Model"? it's another horrible attempt to capitalize on the recent fashion/modeling/reality tv crazes, except without the mind-numbing wonder that is Ms. Tyra Banks. instead, it has pretty girls with awful disabilities competing against one another to be in a Marie Claire spread.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7Cw3T6MKSI

this. is. terrible. a) capitalizing on disabled young women, b) one girl being concerned that her disability isn't NOTICEABLE ENOUGH? and so many other things through this one clip.

if this weren't a real tv show it'd almost be comical, but since it is I'm just pretty horrified by it.



ADDENDUM: Tavi the 12 year old fashionista? anyone smell a scam? additionally, don't you hate it when you love a band for one reason or another and their first album is amazing, and the second is like a sad, watered-down imitation of the first one done by talentless wanna-bes? yeah, hate that.

I give up on individuality. I should just starve myself, wear american apparel all the time, and pretend I'm agyness deyn.

fngkldnkdmhld.
silly things frustrate me.
here's to a summer of spending as little time in saugus as possible, and when I'm there hanging out with the only people who keep me sane here.

fuck you, scarjo, don't sing tom waits.

What we have here is the top 106 books most often marked as "unread" by LibraryThing’s users. As in, they sit on the shelf to make you look smart or well-rounded. Bold the ones you've read, underline the ones you read for school, italicize the ones you started but didn't finish. (NOTE that most of the ones I've italicized I haven't finished because of lack of time and not lack of interest and I DO plan to finish them someday unless I've noted otherwise)

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell (I just bought this actually... I love planning summer reading.)
Anna Karenina
Crime and Punishment
Catch-22
One Hundred Years of Solitude
Wuthering Heights
The Silmarillion
Life of Pi : a novel
The Name of the Rose
Don Quixote
Moby Dick
Ulysses
Madame Bovary
The Odyssey
Pride and Prejudice
Jane Eyre
The Tale of Two Cities (HATE HATE HATE)
The Brothers Karamazov
Guns, Germs, and Steel
War and Peace
Vanity Fair
The Time Traveler’s Wife
The Iliad
Emma
The Blind Assassin
The Kite Runner
Mrs. Dalloway
Great Expectations
American Gods
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius
Atlas Shrugged
Reading Lolita in Tehran : a memoir in books
Memoirs of a Geisha
Middlesex
Quicksilver
Wicked : the life and times of the wicked witch of the West
The Canterbury Tales (Only had to do the wife of bath...)
The Historian : a novel (planning on stealing this one from my mom)
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Love in the Time of Cholera
Brave New World
The Fountainhead
Foucault’s Pendulum
Middlemarch
Frankenstein
The Count of Monte Cristo
Dracula (I read it for school eventually, but on my own first)
A Clockwork Orange(not finished because I don't actually own it)
Anansi Boys
The Once and Future King
The Grapes of Wrath
The Poisonwood Bible : a novel
1984
Angels & Demons
Inferno
The Satanic Verses
Sense and Sensibility
The Picture of Dorian Gray (read for school eventually again)
Mansfield Park
One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
To the Lighthouse
Tess of the D’Urbervilles
Oliver Twist
Gulliver’s Travels
Les Misérables
The Corrections
The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time
Dune
The Prince
The Sound and the Fury
Angela’s Ashes : a memoir
The God of Small Things
A People’s History of the United States : 1492-present
Cryptonomicon
Neverwhere
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Short History of Nearly Everything
Dubliners
The Unbearable Lightness of Being
Beloved
Slaughterhouse-five
The Scarlet Letter
Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon
Oryx and Crake : a novel
Collapse : how societies choose to fail or succeed
Cloud Atlas
The Confusion
Lolita
Persuasion
Northanger Abbey
The Catcher in the Rye(damn you Salinger, I hated this book.)
On the Road
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Freakonomics : a rogue economist explores the hidden side of everything
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance : an inquiry into values
The Aeneid
Watership Down
Gravity’s Rainbow
The Hobbit
In Cold Blood : a true account of a multiple murder and its consequences
White Teeth
Treasure Island
David Copperfield
The Three Musketeers




I feel like a bad English major, since the majority of that list I haven't touched :-( Bad English major, baaad....

1. Total volume of music files on my computer? 16.65 GB, or almost 11 days.
2. The last CD I bought? I don't buy a lot of CDs anymore... umm maybe Juno?
3.a) The last song I listened to before writing this was: Girls of Summer by Aerosmith
3.b) Song playing right now?: Teardrop by Massive Attack & Portishead
4. Five songs I listen to a lot:(lately, it's been:)
a. Always Be by Jimmy Eat World
b. Wet Sand by Red Hot Chili Peppers
c. Knocked Up by Kings of Leon
d. Simeon's Dilemma by Why?
e.Fatalist Palmistry by Why?
5. Five songs that mean a lot to me:
a. Motorcycle Drive By by Third Eye Blind
b. Heartbreak Hotel by Elvis Presley
c. Never is a Promise by Fiona Apple
d. Bad Day by Matchbox Twenty
e. Punk Rocker by Iggy Pop and the Teddybears
1. A song by The Beatles: A Day in the Life
2: A song featuring piano as the main intstrument: Around the Clock by the Rocket Summer
3: A song with a woman's name in the title: O Maria by Beck
4: A song with a man's name in the title: Poor Edward by Tom Waits
5: A song about money: Money by Pink Floyd
6: A song with weather in the title: Sunshine and Clouds and Everything Proud by Clap Your Hands Say Yeah!
7: A song with parenthesis in the title: Bling (Confessions of a King) by the Killers
8: A song by a punk band: No Fun by the Stooges
9: A song with the word "song" in the title: The Song of the Sad Assassin by Why?
10: A song you love so much you stop and listen whenever you hear it: Umm, there are a lot of those... I'll pick Dirty Business by the Dresden Dolls
Total number of tracks: 3881
Sort by song title:
* First Song:A-Punk by Vampire Weekend
* Last Song: umm, it doesn't have a title, but it's by Pretty Girls Make Graves
Sort by album:
* First Song: Come Together by the Beatles
* Last Song: the last one with an album actually listed is Tarantula by Smashing Pumpkins
Top 10 Most Played Songs:
1. Naive by the Kooks
2. On the Radio by Regina Spektor
3. That Time by Regina
4. Me and Mia by Ted Leo
5. This is Everything by Tegan and Sara
6. Modern Girls and Old Fashioned Men by The Strokes and Regina
7. Four Winds by Bright Eyes
8. This Picture by Placebo
9. Ruby Blue by Roisin Murphy
10. Counting Down the Hours by Ted Leo
First five songs that comes up on Shuffle:
1. 3rd Planet by Modest Mouse
2. PDA by Interpol
3. Brooklyn Dodgers by Xiu Xiu
4. Nightingale by Norah Jones
5. Noisy Racket by Neutral Milk Hotel
Search...
* "sex", how many songs come up? 14
* "love", how many songs come up? 184
* "you", how many songs come up? 443
* "death", how many songs come up? 24
* "hate", how many songs come up? 7
* "wish" how many songs come up? 10




better than reading paradise lost.

Ellen and I scored a double on Bay State Rd, which is probably the prettiest part of our campus. and we're on the river side, so hopefully out room will have a river view! <3<3<3

so shortly, fare thee well south campus. you have been good to me, but after three semesters, it's time for a change of scenery.

now all i've gotta do is save money and go to london. that first part isn't working so well right now; i've been slacking and spending and only have like $40. but no worries, pay goes up over the summer.

friday afternoon i'm hopping on a plane to disney world. all expenses paid because my mom got her bonus at work and still loves me for some strange reason and wants me to be there. this is one of the best perks of having a little brother still young enough to actively want to do this stuff and have me around too.

by the time i get back i only have six days of classes and then a week to study for finals. shit, sophomore year is OVER. but it's gonna be weird, I know legit like seven people who are all staying here for all/part of the summer.


warmth is gradually approaching, rejoice.

I'm waiting to see if one of my suitemates EVER gets out of the shower so I can be at least semi-presentable for classes. in the meantime, there's this:

( song list thingy-ma-bob )

Karna gave me his band's CD and it's really good. they're totally insane of course, but I really hope they keep going. they were in NME this summer and touring, and are part of a documentary with other taqwacore bands. my two favorite songs so far are "Sharia Law in the USA" and "Suicide Bomb the GAP".


so basically, go Karna <3

so I just fucking love massachusetts.

I get a jury duty notice- I respond and postpone it.
I get ANOTHER jury duty notice.
apparently, I am two people.

so I have to call... and sit on the line waiting for an operator for almost half an hour when it takes her less than two minutes to fix the problem.

at least it's dealt with, but come on state department, seriously? I can't be the only person in MA with two addresses within the state.

I saw Mika friday night with Berry &Chantal, and it was the MOST FUN ever. Mika is the most infectiously adorable human being on the face of the planet; he obviously loves performing and loves his fans. He loves being a little controversial but still so friendly and cute, a bit of a diva but in the best most entertaining way possible. the minute he walked onstage, everyone started smiling and didn't stop till we left the theater.

the finale was HILARIOUS and soooo awesome.


there were animal costumes, people dancing on stage, CONFETTI, and GIANT BALLOONS.
skngiorhneointhoehrm.
It was AMAZING and I'd do ANYTHING to go see him again. I'd MARRY that crazy man.

the hangover that is just now going away from later that night, however, is something I could have lived without.
eh, c'est la vie.

oh Heath Ledger, why?

so Ellen took me to the Blonde Redhead concert as an early birthday present last night, and it was AWESOME. the opening band (whose name I can't remember at the mo) was kinda of weird, but I think I liked them. the lead singer chick had maracas, that's all that matters I guess. but blonde redhead was soooo good, they played for a really long time and had a five song encore. the only thing that bothered me was that they chose some really slow/down songs for the encore, so it was kind of like... okay, this is nice, but you ended the actual set on such a high note, there should have been better follow up. but anyway I find the guitarist/male singer strangely attractive... and Ellen and I made friends with some interesting people during the show, it was hilarious.

in short, I have an awesome roommie.

and I get to see MIKA!! with Berry!! in less than two weeks!

honestly, it was a really good night, especially after all the shit I went through Friday, I needed a serious break. it was fun and relaxing, as opposed to my near-breakdown status at the start of the weekend.

now if only I could figure out A) what the hell I'm supposed to be doing for my compsci homework, and B) why the poetry handbook I need for writing is no where to be found anywhere.